Ten things that I am thankful for:
1. My salvation and Grace. I mess up every single day, some worst than others. I often feel unworthy like I'm never enough but He loves me in spite of all my wrongs. He gives me another chance every day that I wake up.
2. My Mother. I've never wanted to please anyone as much as I do her. She is my very best friend. She also loves me even at my lowest times. I've always been aware of how amazing she is, even when we don't agree on things. I could not live without her. I would be at a complete loss. I laugh more with my momma than anyone else, I'd rather spend my days with her than with others. I never want to miss an opportunity to say I love you or spend my time with her.
3. My Husband. Ya know we have nothing in common, were six years apart in age and we rarely see things the same way. I have absolutely no idea how or why we work but we do. I tried to run away and each day got harder instead of easier. So I found my way back. Everyday is similar yet different and I've learned that how I view our marriage and him is how it will be. I've learned to look for the good and not focus on the bad. I have no idea how he puts up with me but I am glad he does. He's gentle, laid back, easy going, incredibly intelligent, talented at almost anything he touches, loves Jesus with his whole heart. What you see is very much what you get with him. He's a great daddy and loves the boys indefinitely. I can't tell you what holds us together but whatever it is I'm glad. I still have my struggles but marriage is a full time job, if it were easy people wouldn't be divorced every day.
4. My Boys. I have the sweetest, smartest, funniest, handsomest baby boys! Of course I'm bias!! They challenge me every single day, they make me crazy every single day, they make me ask God why did He think I could handle this. They also make me laugh like no other, I just sit back and watch them and at those times think why was I lucky enough to be given this gift. They've shown me my weaknesses and my strengths. I try to do the very best I can with raising them to be the Godly men they need to be.
5. My Church. I am one of the few people left in our church who have been there over 15 years. That is my home. My safe place. I thoroughly enjoy going to church. For Jesus, friends, family. I don't consider it a burden or something that takes up all my time. I have one of the greatest Pastors and his wife, the leadership in our church is some of the absolute best. It's a blessing to have my children be raised there and know they will want to go even when they are out from under me.
6. My friends. I've gone through some friends over the years. To be honest there is only a handful I can say have been constant. I've learned many things about trust, loyalty, love through all of these relationships. I now choose friends that are wanting the same things out of life as I am. I surround myself with positive people and have let go of the ones who are negative. I've also let go of the ones who talk about everyone and tell my business as well. I do believe everyone is for a reason and some only a season. To my current people who I speak to more than twice a week, know that you are soooooo very special to me. I truly mean it!! Thank you for loving me for me, flaws and all. For putting up with my forgetfulness and the craziness my life is having two two year olds.
7. My Job(s). Event planning isn't exactly what I want to do or what I was created to do but it's getting me into the places I need to be to do what I want. Which ultimately I think is Event Design. To be able to walk into a space and see what it can be, not what it is. ( much like I do with people who everyone else has given up on) It's fulfilling for me to see a vision and bring it to life. Hair, I still do on the side some and it still gives me that creative outlet when nothing else is. Maybe one day I will go back into the salon for a day or two a week and have fun with it, we shall see! I have other things I would like to get my hands into as well so I'm excited to see the doors that will all be opening for me.
8. My House. So most of you, well some of you probably read my blog last year I wrote about our house. It was and still is such a blessing and answer to my prayers. We are renting, I don't intend to buy this house, for the mean time though until that day comes I couldn't be happier. The lady who owns the house hands down greatest lady we've ever dealt with. It's a actual brick home, we have a fenced yard for Buddy, perfect neighborhood and we can stay as long as we like! NO MORE MOVING!!!! No more apartments, condos, tiny little places. We now have a stable environment for our boys to grow!
9. Bishop TD Jakes. Yall know by now that he is my second pastor. I watch and listen to every single Sunday service multiple times during the week. He has shown me things I didn't know, explained stories and people I just couldn't ever understand. So many huge life moments his words had a part in making for the better. He is who God uses to really speak to me. I honestly don't know where I would be if I didn't start listening to him in January of 2012. He makes the Bible relate to my current circumstance. He makes me see how the person he may be talking about had a similar issue that I might be dealing with. He's amazing to me.
10. All the things and people who didn't work out. For every person who wronged me, has spoken negative about me, created lies about me. For the guys who I thought I loved, the friends I thought were real, the family I thought I could count on. If nothing else I learned what I didn't need or want from each of them. They pushed me into the person I am now, to the place I am now, that I am thankful for. They made me wiser and stronger. It may have hurt at the time but it only made me a little bit tougher to deal with the next one. I had a Word spoken over me two years ago. The man said that God has given me a backbone made of steel and that people are going to talk, but He will uphold me. So it's no surprise when I hear something that someone thinks or has come up. You know when your doing something right/great by how many people are coming against you. I've definitely learned You can't appreciate good till you've had bad.
These are just the major things, I'm that person that literally thanks God for my toothbrush and toothpaste. For the bobby pins to hold my hair up and my weave when I want it longer. Every single thing big or small I am thankful for. Oh and He knows how thankful I am for makeup, the color on my lips, the shadow on my eyes, the polish on my nails. He is a good God whether I have anything or not. I will still praise Him.
What are you thankful for today?
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