When the line finally started moving and we got closer and closer to the door my anticipation was growing and growing. What kind of Word was he going to have for me that night. What if I got to meet him, what if he called me out with a Word. What was I going to walk away from there with? We were almost to the door, it was in sight and they said it was full. They motioned us and hundreds more over to the overflow rooms. I was so upset and angry, all those people lived there or went to that church and got to see all those people whenever they wanted to, ya know?! I just didn't think it was fair at all! I could have stayed home in the warm coziness I call home and streamed online, if I would have known I'd be sitting in a empty building looking at a projection screen.
On the way home I was still furious but my mom said something that I still think about today. She said something along the lines of "it's not about TD Jakes". She was right, I think God was showing me that I was starting to idolize Bishop, I was listening to him every time he was on something, I was getting fed more than ever but I was starting to focus too much on who was talking instead of what was being said. So I learned a valuable lesson that night.
Well I learned more than one lesson haha I learned to be Insanely early to something that you want to do! That is why I am here oh 3 hours early today. I want to be close to the front and I don't want to be last anymore. So call me crazy I don't care. But this time around I'm not here to idolize Clayton, I'm not here because he's attractive, ( we all know he is don't lie) I'm here to support someone who is my age preaching the Gospel. I'm here to encourage someone who is touching all ages, especially young people. I'm here to hear the truth, not sugar coated, not a feel good message but the truth. I'm here to encourage myself with seeing and hearing what someone my age is capable of and how I could be doing more. I am excited to walk through those doors and see how God shows up tonight, in a different atmosphere than what I'm use to in our church. To sit with other people I know and don't know all in agreement with each other.
For many it will be about Clayton, for many it will be about hearing the Word, for many it will be because they are curious about who Jesus is, for me it's about being encouraged when I leave to go home tonight. So now I will continue to sit here and wait... Oh another two hours hahaha to get in. But it's worth it. People wait hours to get in to see their favorite music artists, they wait for sports games, they wait in line at Disney, I'm gunna wait in line to hear about Jesus.
